Follow your heart

Why is it sometimes that we get something in our minds and we can’t let it go?  Is it that we sometimes try to hard, or is it that we are programed to not fight for what we want any more?  It sure is easier to say you changed your mind as opposed to not followed your dreams?  I have found myself lately revisiting several of these questions as things in my life have suddenly taken a turn and I have an opportunity to possibly rewrite a few regrets in life that I never followed through on.  And I find myself coming back to how I feel about me and how I feel about my body are really key factors in whether or not I face some of the demons or run from them again.

In the past, my insecurities took over and the not so magical voice inside my head would fill me with doubts of all the reasons why I wasn’t good enough, why I couldn’t possibly try something so crazy and why I would never be given a chance and I would cave.  I would suddenly decide that something wasn’t right for me even though in my heart I knew that it was.  Have you ever done that?   Have you ever given into your insecurities and then changed your mind?  Why is it so hard to admit what we truly want in life and go after it with all you have inside of you, cause at least if you don’t make it - you will have given it your best shot and not live with a lifetime of regrets of what if I only had tried?

I find myself in uncharted territories right now cause the voice inside my head has stopped harassing me and all that I am left is the question of why not?  Why couldn’t I do this?  Why can’t I face my fears and just get out of my own damn way?  And I realize that the reason the voice inside my head has stopped harassing me is because I have finally learned to accept myself for who I am today, not who I want to be, not who I could be when I’m a certain weight or dress size but who I am today - right where I am now.  Once you face that and learn to accept who you are and where you are in your life it is sooooo much easier to face your fears when you are not being bogged down with all this extra pressure that negative voice adds.  The negative voice only ever feeds your insecurities never helps calm them down.  So I’m finally learning that the key to any success in life is turn off the negative voice inside your head and follow your heart even if sometimes its scary and makes no sense even to yourself - you have to learn to trust yourself before you can truly go after your dreams.

So my tip for today is listen to your heart and get out of your own head.  What do you think good plan?  How about you start listening to your own heart and quieting down that voice in your own head?

Till next time,


Faking Yourself Out?

A friend of mine has recently reminded me what it is to just have absolute blind faith, throw caution to wind, move several states away and just follow your bliss and your dreams.  Sure we all have dreams, goals that just seem out of reach but what would happen if you stopped giving yourself excuses and went after your dreams with everything you have?  Would that be the end of your world?  I say most definitely, it would be THE END OF THE WORLD AS YOU KNOW IT, but would that really be the end of the world, NO!  

Do you have that kind of courage?  Do you have that much belief in yourself?  Do you have that much conviction in your dreams? These have been the thoughts that have been running around in my head as today is his big moving day and I have to say I have been surprised by my thoughts of “WHY NOT?” that keep coming up for me.  

If we do not have faith in ourselves, in our abilities and have the courage to stand up for what we believe in -  than are we really even living our own lives?  In the past, I had wasted so much time not living my life, living the life some one else thought I should have that now that I have the opportunity to live life on my own terms, I find that I am sometimes still riddled with conversations of the past telling me all the reasons why I can’t and the worst part is I start believe those voices.  Intellectually, I know how ridiculous this sounds but that crap still creeps in.  

So when does it ever go away?  The answer to that question is, when you stop caring what other people think, when you stop letting others insecurities and fears cloud you’re own judgment and you go after your own life and your own dreams on your own terms.  So I’d like to say thank you to my friend Anthony for reminding me that you are only as good as you believe you are.  I hope New York is ready for you my friend, best of luck and I’m so proud of you.  You are an inspiration!  :)  

Till next week,